You know what? I have just had a real moment and caught myself fast…I miss my girlfriend!! You people that have been blessed with a good partner and happy, healthy experiences should really keep those memories close in your heart. I do not think I have ever had a mutually respectable relationship ever…until now.
I guess you know you are blessed with a good one when the lies are nil and the other is always there to help you up when you fall, and I mean physically, emotionally and spiritually. My past relationships were mostly based on my own selfish wants and desires with no interest in building on interdependence. They were all based on self-seeking behavior and motivated by physical attraction.
Why has it taken me so long to see things with a clear perspective? The only answer I can give myself is that in my heart I am tired and sorry and ready and willing to accept accountability for all those years of self hate, doing drugs, surviving by criminal activities. So after all the years of bad and ugly experiences you finally meet someone that is willing to offer their energy and love to you and boom! you actually want to do better, be better…you truly want to keep that person in your life.
So I thank my girlfriend for every bit of attention and love she gives to me. And it really does make me warm inside to be able to give all the same back to her!